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14blows BEAT ME sooner than later. [05 Sep 2004|07:02pm] [ mood | restless ] i am actually deploying. to afghanistan. im not allowed to say when. but early next year. so you better think twice about talking your shit about what we do over there, because we fucking do it for you. it pisses me off to hear all of you watch whats going on from your televisions like you have a fucking clue. watching one sided propaghana. and if someone tried to have an intelligent conversation with you, you'd fumble over your fucking words. just remember, when i wake up and its fucking 900 degrees at 0300 hrs and put on my gear and go to work fixing blackhawks so our boys can complete their mission, i am thinking of you all. and knowing that if we fight them on their turf, then they aren't back here trying to hurt my most precious family and friends. most people just want something to rebel against. i did. but i grew up. there are a lot of things i don't agree with. and there are a lot of people that i wouldn't fight for. but this is something that i do agree with, and you are someone i AM fighting for. i love you all very much.

34blows BEAT ME I GRADUATED!!!!!! [28 Apr 2004|07:17pm] Hey everyone! Well, I graduated basic training. Now I am in Ft. Eustis, VA. It is awesome here! So relaxed, so many freedoms. I love it here. Ginny: I am here! I am getting a tattoo this weekend, you should meet me somewhere soon! I miss you, and I need your number or something. pv2 ford, alysha r c co 1/222 avn regt 1st plt ft. eustis, va 23604 WRITE ME SUCKAS!!!! much love lysha

10blows BEAT ME last entry for 9 weeks... [10 Feb 2004|02:01am] no sap here. just bye. i'll update after basic. I WANT A PARTY PLANNED FOR MY ARRIVAL JERKOFFS!!!! please be careful all of you. i love you so much, and i'll miss you. God bless you all.

4blows BEAT ME [08 Feb 2004|04:19am] **tonight was good. for the most part. i got to see everyone before i leave. mucho exciting. i danced my butt of at the show, and oh how i miss having fun at shows. lots of money was raised for corey and jamie. something like 550. praise God, he's totally got their backs. like woah. **now i feel weird. he wasn't alone. it made me nervous. and ruined thoughts. but thats probably a good thing. got to say goodbye to dylan. not closure, for i would have cried if we got that. i don't think dylan and i will ever fully have that. we've been through too much. and after all the mean things that i've said and thought about him. he really is a good friend. **why i am still awake...oh yea, waffle house coffee and a mind that is incredibly too stressed to sleep. time for bed. please call me guys. i want to hear from you before i leave. 817.478.5732

5blows BEAT ME today... [07 Feb 2004|04:18pm] [ mood | weird ] life is crazy stressfull right now. its real good, but some of it is just nuts! i leave on tuesday. 2 full days left of regular civilian life. ***at the end of august i'll be back for two weeks doing 'hometown recruiting'. randi: you better be ready. you and i are going to spas and gay crap like that. i figure i'll need some relaxation after all the training, and you probably always need some relaxing from the whole mom thing. just get ready to take a vacation with sissy. see you guys at the show tonight i hope!!! liana i straight up love you. thats all there is to it. we haven't chilled in a long time, and thats a shame. your still my left thumb. and i'll think of you everytime i have to say my phonetic alphabet when i get to 'c' and have to say 'charlie'. i love you. cxc 'you frontin, you hatin, you effin instigatin...' britt i hate you for leaving so soon before me, because i wanted to see you more. heya is playing right now, and i think of you. you better have fun making out with the world. just be ready to visit me in europe. va too sucka. i love you. seriously, i don't know what i'd have done with out you backing me up in so many areas. im gonna miss you sucka. cxc camille why you and i didn't grow closer sooner, i don't know? screw regretting, but i sure wish we would have. i really admire you, all i can say is...shake them hatas off. thank you for all your friendship, advice, and help with that blasted apt. much love from me to you c. for real. to all my ladies, much love.

4blows BEAT ME new layout suckas!!! [04 Feb 2004|03:49pm] [ mood | chipper ] *so i have a new layout. it is fantastic. and i did it all by myself. um...i don't really have much to say today. i found some old pictures of myslef today. i forgot how lovely my trihawks were. ( lookie here ) I WANT TO HAVE A COSTUME PARTY BEFORE I LEAVE! anyone interested??? when and where should i have it? im gonna be a 20's flapper if i have a party. so all you other ladies, BLOW OFF! <3 praise the lord. *has to edit this entry b/c im sitting at the computer, my little sis is sitting on my lap, well, she just fell asleep on my arm. she is freakin amazing.

8blows BEAT ME HUGE BIG GARAGE SALE!!! [03 Feb 2004|01:55pm] [ mood | excited ] so i know you're all broke, but get some cash and buy my crap!!! IM SELLING MY STUFF!!! i've got a lot of good stuff, a lot of my punk stuff. cute furniture, books, movies, so on and so forth. *my ma and i are holding a garage sale at her house on thursday and friday. so come and buy some stuff please. tell all your friends, of every genre, there is good stuff for everyone, so please help me out! directions 5201 Foxgrove Ct Arlington, Tx 76017 its directly off of I-20 so come. genisis 12:1-10 ryan says its the word of today, so ya'll should read it too. you might get something out of it. if your hearts are open that is. anyway...praise the Lord.

8blows BEAT ME [01 Feb 2004|07:46pm] okay... so today starts the 10 day countdown to when i leave for almost 3 years... *apartment is still messy, and camille let me use this steamvac to clean the carpet...and i don't know how to use it! some housewife im gonna make. i'll be able to fix an black hawk helocopter, but not a freakin' vacuum. man, i feel at peace. God is so good. i totally feel in a new kind of love with him. there is no freedom like there is in his presence. for real...i just advise all of you to get into some Word and pray. oh just praise God, for real. thats all. i still love you. its consuming how much i do. and im sorry for how it has to be right now. but you and i both know why. just think ahead. i love you.

15blows BEAT ME pretty pretty please, with sugar on top! [27 Jan 2004|02:03pm] [ mood | stressed ] I NEED HELP!!!!! will anyone help me clean my old apartment that other people trashed and didn't clean at all? i need some serious help, like throwing away stuff, mopping, vacuuming, washing dishes and so forth... i have 4 days to get out of that apartment, and i really need some friends to step up and give me a hand. PLEASE!!!

9blows BEAT ME wow [26 Jan 2004|10:46am] so its official: my first duty station is somewhere in europe. im gonna be in either germany or spain most likely. i am UBER excited. minister to europeans, work on helocopters, get paid, work out. so many things to be extatic for! yick. don't know what to say. oh, i am going to have a going away party. sometime soon. everyone's invited. i forgot what else i was going to say. ***oh yea, God is good. i was thinking i was trusting in Him, then He was like: "Alysha, why dont you trust me, if you really did, you wouldn't worry about silly things like you are. I love you, trust me, for I Am, and I will just take care of you, for thats what I do. I am kinda the King of the whole entire universe. So trust me."

4blows BEAT ME phew! [25 Jan 2004|03:12am] [ mood | sleep? whats that? ] i love you randi. you are such a dang blessing. *talking to the person you love more than life itself until 3:00 in the morning is the most satisfiying thing. absolutely blissful. after 6 or more years, they just know how to answer and relate to you. so they know you more than you know yourself. clearity is a good thing. however, i just made two typos: later > alter good > god maybe i just need to go pray. but things on God's alter. i know he'll handle everything. im just worried that the outcomes might upset certain people. i don't know what to think right now. its been a confusing day. so now im gonna go get with God. i need some fellowship with that guy right about now. don't assume i am talking about you. if i am you'd know it. and don't overreact and think you know it. i love you.

21blows BEAT ME you only have two more weeks. [23 Jan 2004|05:14pm] [ mood | relieved ] february 11 is my ship out date. do you understand what that means? *i leave for boot camp in 2 and 1/2 weeks. whereas i thought i would have app. 2 months to say goodbye. love you guys and you had better write me. i seriously need your addresses PRONTO!!! the physical sucked by the way. but you are reading about the newest female blackhawk mechanic. yea thats right, i am going to work on apatche helicopters. bootcamp=missouri school=virginia ginny get ready, i'll see you in 3 months. i love you ryan.

7blows BEAT ME phew...praise God [21 Jan 2004|11:31pm] [ mood | amazed ] so tonight at church, i haven't seen the Holy Spirit move like that ever...and i have seen some amazing things. but tonight people were convulsing and falling and crying and laughing...it was moving. for real... do it kids!!! *this is the post where you all leave me your addresses/phone numbers...just contact information in general. if you want to keep in touch while i am away, i will need your letters and support. so yea, give em up! i love you kids. for real. keep me entertained. i want pictures, stories, new jokes, old inside jokes. i want it all.

13blows BEAT ME my oh my... [21 Jan 2004|09:44am] [ mood | in a tizzy ] took my ASVAB!!! guess who made an 82!!??!! -me you sillys! so that means i am qualified for almost every job in the army. PRAISE GOD! there are only 2 that i didn't qualify for and that is something to do with satillite communications, blah blah blah. who wants to do that anyway? not me. so you guys are gonna have to do without silly old me for about 9 weeks comin' up here soon. pray for my strength in my faith while i am in boot camp. its gonna be tough, but i really feel like God is calling me to spread his love around to those who don't know him. i don't know when i ship out yet. i find out on friday. but it could be this month, or most likely (depending on the job i choose) 3 to 4 months from now. friday is the big day. on the down side: *phone is shut off *can't talk to ryan because of above. ryan: i am sorry i didn't call you back last night, but audrey got really sick, and then i couldn't call you b/c i have no phone serivce...but we need to be working together. send me that email of scripture please. i have to tell her before she leaves! please don't be upset. i'll call you as soon as i can get a hold of a cell phone. i love you.

6blows BEAT ME please [16 Jan 2004|01:31pm] [ mood | blessed ] Jamie and Corey got in HUGE accident. Jamie=comatose, missing tips of 2 fingers. Corey=very beat up, lots of broken bones. i don't care who you are. pray for them. her mother is in pain. she has suffered a lot of loss this year. pray for her comfort. another miracle JUST READ IT! every tuesday i am fasting for someones salvation or something that they need. just whoever the Lord puts on my heart. usually i pick someone, and then monday night God says, "nope, fast for this person." the first week i fasted for my fathers addictions. BUT-this week i fasted for a very good friend. i tried to talk to him about the Lord, but i just planted the seed. then tuesday i prayed and prayed for the Lord to move in him, and for him to have an open heart to God's word. on wednesday, (THE VERY NEXT DAY PEOPLE!) my very good friend decided to turn back to God. Praise God! amazing i think. God just wow's me. im like "God, i just can't get the word through to him, he won't listen." so i pray for God to move. and God says,"let me do it. you planted the seed, now watch me move. watch what i can do." thats what trusting in God is all about. seriously, when you think that you can't do it. it's probably beacause you can't, but HE CAN *diving in.

7blows BEAT ME waking up horrified [14 Jan 2004|06:07pm] [ mood | relieved ] imagine waking up from your nap after working a 5am shift to noon, without sleeping the night before. excluding a couple of naps. waking up to your boyfriend calling saying he wrecked his car!!! i was so scared!!! but he's okay, thank the Lord, his car is just scratched. I TOO WRECKED MY CAR AGAIN! how crazy is it that? me and ryan must be meant for each other, b/c we smash up and scratch up our cars in the same day! but i was backing out of my barking space, and i cut the wheel too much, and i dented and scratched up my fender. its so ugly. and it makes a bad noise when i turn sharply. i worked today at urban outfitters doing inventory from 5am until noon. yea, not sleeping the night before was a big mistake. but i did get paid for it. so yay. yea, i love being in love. and all the good parts of it. also, the most important thing is we have a strong foundation, ie rock of the ages, alpha omega. all those cool names translating for God. its awesome. anyways...time for food then church. love you boys and ghouls. God bless.

7blows BEAT ME how do i? [13 Jan 2004|03:26pm] so ryan just called me, and oh man...i miss him. i just want to be the one to massage his hands and feet after a hard days work. sad. but lovely. oh i love that boy. how to i tell a loved one something that they don't want to hear? -something that they won't understand? -something that they probably won't listen to me try to explain? this is gonna be tough. i'll fully explain later, after i tell this wonderful person. i hope you liked your lunch brit!!!

9blows BEAT ME woo hoo! [13 Jan 2004|01:41am] [ mood | amazed ] tonight was fun. i didn't smoke one cigarette today. infact, i gave away a pack. also at 12am this morning i started my second fast of the year. this one is for a good friend. praise God for putting him on my heart so suddenly. now for the important thing that happened today: if you don't believe in God, just let this story hit you with an open heart. please. its long, but read it anyway. last night i tell my mom that i am going to church at 6.15 in the morning to enjoy monday morning prayer at deliverance.(my church). well my gas tank was empty. so my mother says, "alysha, who is going to pay for your gas? you have no job, how are you going to look for a job tomorrow?" then i say,"well mom, i am just going to trust in the Lord to provide for me, for when you trust in the Lord and give Him all you have, He will bless you. so that is what i am going to do." then mom says,"alysha, sometimes you need to be smart about things, you should just stay home and save your gas. God will understand if you stay home and pray. you don't need to go all the way out there to pray." then me, "but mom, its making the effort to give the Lord all of me that is the important part. i am going to trust in the Lord to provide for me. He is a stronger foundation than any kind of planning i can do." -so then i go to church monday(yesterday)morning. and my prayer request is for God to move in my mother and show her that He is the one to lay all faith and trust in. i gave just a little example to the rest of the people at church. i said, "my mother is skeptical, she asked me last night how i was going to take care of gas, and i told her that i was going to put faith in the Lord." -so then we prayed. and i walked out to my car to get my phone, and pastor cleedus, God bless that man, comes running after me, and this is our conversation: pastor,"hey, are you leaving?" me, "no, not yet." pastor,"oh okay, i just wanted to give you this, for gas." -and in my hand pastor lays $20 for me to completely fill up my tank. Praise God trust in the Lord, and he WILL take care of you.

5blows BEAT ME HAHAHA. go 28 go!!! [11 Jan 2004|11:43pm] [ mood | please ] and a closer look: all i am saying is that is amazing. the pictures don't even do justice to the clearity of the cloud in all its greatness. but in real life, i could see a face. a real face. with a halo. in my words "praise that guy" or just praise God. for real. bowling: me=55 taraneh wk!=28 you better go girl. best bowler out there. it was definatly the funnest bowling experience. for this time, i definatly did not rip open my pants and my leg. this is gold: taraneh says: "suprise, this is a backwards bowling game, since i have the lowest score, I WIN. jokes on you!!!" funniest thing i have EVER heard. freakin gold i tell you. bedtime, so goodnight and God bless.

7blows BEAT ME what what what??? [11 Jan 2004|10:35am] this morning my mom said and i quote: "alysha, why don't you just kick everyone out of your apartment and let us help you with rent until you get a good job...?" so do i kick out these people that don't care about me, and take my apartment back? i want to. thats my house, i've lived there for so long. its mine. i worked a lot for that place. kick everyone out? be happy? hmmm... i just don't know.

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